Just an announcement to everyone who receives or found this journal, this journal is submitted by the date stated in the statistics of this journal. 11 December. And by the time someone like you read this, I'll be already gone, there's still a slight chance you people will be able to communicate with me through deviantART.
I will be off to a religious trip with my family. It's a religious thing and I have to attend this. I'm out of the continent for at least a week. And I won't be here to reply to your comments, see my messages. There's also a slight chance I might be able to go online onto deviantART if possible.
But in for this trip, I am at 90% of the disability to come online with deviantART. And for that, I am truly sad that it has to be this way. The only things that motivated me for this trip was to get on the planes cause I love planes and I grew up loving them. Now they're just trimmed down and I have half an interest in planes.
When I get onto the plane tomorrow, I'll be like a kid on the outside but a sad sorrow kid walking under his own rainy dark cloud cause he's not anywhere near from his comfort zone. The second thing I'm motivated about is the clothes I bought. I cared. And the weather there is cold and windy. But not snowy. But if there is snow when we reach there, it'll be fun. I bought a wind breaker with fur on it's hood's edges of the hole.
That's kinda what she said. Lol
So yes, again, I'll be gone for a week. Really sorrowed that I have to attend this. It's gonna be terrorizing for me and I probably won't enjoy this trip. I don't care about getting experience. Some people says it's good to get experiences. But experiences are only good when you're interested. This, I'm not.
But when I come back, I'll probably upload my footage that I capture from the plane. I hope I get a window seat. This religious trip happens every December. And my religion's group is not that big on money to get such iconic airlines. Everyone in my religion will be going. My mom told me this planes that are taking us there and coming back home is dedicated specially for us.
That's kinda cool I guess. Even though at the same time, as much as I'm motivated to get onto an Airbus A330 or a 737 or even a 747, I just felt better off not going on this trip. Be safe at my comfort zone with my grandma. Apparently, she's not going. She's just lucky she gets to stay. My grandma is healthy woman so she can move at the same pace just like adults and children should.
But she's still an elderly and she's just lucky that she gets to stay at home to look after it while we're gone. I wish I don't have to go, I wished my passport expired. I wish the flight was somehow cancelled. Okay okay, that maybe too far already. But as I told you people, as much as I am in sync to get into this, I feel better off not going on the other side of my mindset.
The least this could do, is make the trip shorter. I don't understand why it has to be so long. Just get the thing done already, don't have to be there for a week. I've gone to this trip before when I was young, gone through hell. Not literally, I'm just saying it feels that way and I'm sure it's obvious.
And once again, I will enter it again with no choice. Okay maybe it's a sin to say that so, I'm sorry. But anyway, I really wish I can type more onto this journal cause I just can't help it. I love to stay where I am, go into the city that I know well and that's that. I don't like to get out of the continent. Not unless we're just going out of town, that, I would have the least to worry.
Anyway, I guess I'm okay with this. But deep inside me, I'm frustrated that I have to do this. My heart is not happy, it's malfunctioning or overheating. Only the sign of not going out of the continent would relief it. See, I don't even like camps. At all. Regardless of whatever thing is organized by. School, curricular activties, camp company, religion. No! I hate it!
Alright, so, I hope to see you bros soon. ;( I really wish I didn't have to go. I really do. This is what I choose to be but God's not letting me. Why?
Don't answer that
. Okay, anyway, I'll be off right now and hope to see you guys really soon after I return. Bye...